DOING AS I AM TOLD
I have been instructed to update. So, consider this an update. Although the journey to find focus continues, one thing is clear: I plan to continue Theophany for the foreseeable future. What is uncertain is the exact focus of things here.
My first use of this space was to catalogue and reflect on my living as I moved through the early months of recovery from addiction to drugs. My feelings were raw and the space gave me a place to vent, feel, ponder and liberate. Today, I don't seem to need to revel publically in the ongoing moments of recovery. I still attend Narcotics Anonymous meetings on a weekly basis and there, among the family of recovering people and the relationship I have built with my sponsor, I tend to process and learn what I need to about recovery and becoming an increasingly more responsible and productive member of society.
Much of my 'recovering' is still found here, encased among the poetry and prose layered about this blog. Although not proclaimed as such, I know my recovery IS within all that I live, and I suspect that were I to position it other than at the center of my living, I would soon be falling prey to some manifestation of addiction. In that sense this will always be about the journey of one recovering addict.
What is more, although this has and always will be a space intended for my benefit, I am aware by the emails that have been sent and the occasional poignant comment, that others find thier way here and in so doing sometimes find something of value for themselves. Perhaps, as Theophany transforms in the coming weeks, it will be to better acknowledge these moments. Perhaps the new shade of Theophany will be more connected and less silent within these contacts. I seldom correspond with those who post comments, other than the banter that some comments demand. That may change. I ponder the value of letting more of myself be known to others by sharing outside of this space.
Another piece of the 'now' is that thanks to some assistance of a design-wise-friend, I will be exploring some design changes. Action often precedes inspiration, so I am not sure what affect the new design might have on the focus of my posting here... Time will tell. I do know that the current design had a profound affect on these years of Theophany...
Such is the state of affairs here.
And now for a poetic interlude...
Is that you?
I see the familiar tilt of your face
The curve of your neck
Your embrace
Of him
As you once carefully held me
Knowing my dreams
Setting me free
Of you
Is that you my amusing one
Caressing my passion
Telling me you are not done
With us?
-Theo
I have been instructed to update. So, consider this an update. Although the journey to find focus continues, one thing is clear: I plan to continue Theophany for the foreseeable future. What is uncertain is the exact focus of things here.
My first use of this space was to catalogue and reflect on my living as I moved through the early months of recovery from addiction to drugs. My feelings were raw and the space gave me a place to vent, feel, ponder and liberate. Today, I don't seem to need to revel publically in the ongoing moments of recovery. I still attend Narcotics Anonymous meetings on a weekly basis and there, among the family of recovering people and the relationship I have built with my sponsor, I tend to process and learn what I need to about recovery and becoming an increasingly more responsible and productive member of society.
Much of my 'recovering' is still found here, encased among the poetry and prose layered about this blog. Although not proclaimed as such, I know my recovery IS within all that I live, and I suspect that were I to position it other than at the center of my living, I would soon be falling prey to some manifestation of addiction. In that sense this will always be about the journey of one recovering addict.
What is more, although this has and always will be a space intended for my benefit, I am aware by the emails that have been sent and the occasional poignant comment, that others find thier way here and in so doing sometimes find something of value for themselves. Perhaps, as Theophany transforms in the coming weeks, it will be to better acknowledge these moments. Perhaps the new shade of Theophany will be more connected and less silent within these contacts. I seldom correspond with those who post comments, other than the banter that some comments demand. That may change. I ponder the value of letting more of myself be known to others by sharing outside of this space.
Another piece of the 'now' is that thanks to some assistance of a design-wise-friend, I will be exploring some design changes. Action often precedes inspiration, so I am not sure what affect the new design might have on the focus of my posting here... Time will tell. I do know that the current design had a profound affect on these years of Theophany...
Such is the state of affairs here.
And now for a poetic interlude...
Is that you?
I see the familiar tilt of your face
The curve of your neck
Your embrace
Of him
As you once carefully held me
Knowing my dreams
Setting me free
Of you
Is that you my amusing one
Caressing my passion
Telling me you are not done
With us?
-Theo
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